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Answering questions from a follower

My question concerning life is one: what is the point? There is no point to existence, there never existed a “void” a “nothingness” in which this existence spontaneously happened. It just is, and this makes my mind go insane, because normally everything has a cause and comes from something previous to it. But existence is just eternal effect, and nothing caused it.

My deepest fear is the fear of having fear; fear is horrible. Throughout my life I’ve had some panic attacks (but not many) concerning the fear of death and eternal “nothingness”. But I’ve rationalized death, so I don’t have this fear anymore, but I still do have a fear of that death fear.

Five things I’ve learned about life is that 1) everything depends on perspective 2) life is like a flowing river of moods, slowly changing through time 3) you are always on your way, always becoming, wanting what is lacking, missing, filling the same emptiness inside that has always existed 4) everything sort of comes and goes, especially people, so we must celebrate the arrivals as well as the partings 5) everyone is sort of like you, but not like you at the same time. Its confusing heh. 

"When we suppress our fearful thoughts, they continue to fester there in the dark. We are driven to consume (food, alcohol, movies, etc.) in an attempt to forget and keep those thoughts from surfacing in our conscious mind. Running away from our fear ultimately makes us suffer and makes others suffer, and our fear only grows stronger."
Thich Nhat Hanh
"I did not direct my life. I didn’t design it. I never made decisions. Things always came up and made them for me. That’s what life is."
B. F. Skinner
"He asked why people are sad. ‘That’s simple,’ says the old man. ‘They are the prisoners of their personal history. Everyone believes that the main aim in life is to follow a plan. They never ask if that plan is theirs or if it was created by another person. They accumulate experiences, memories, things, other people’s ideas, and it is more than they can possibly cope with. And that is why they forget their dreams."
Paulo Coelho

The harder your grip on your knowledge (which is based on experience and interpretation) the greater your ignorance toward other perspectives.

Human action derives from the desire to increase all that one loves and values, and to decrease the exact contrary.

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At this point, I can no longer avoid setting out, in an initial, provisional statement, my own hypothesis about the origin of “bad conscience.” It is not easy to get people to attend to it, and it requires them to consider it at length, to guard it, and to sleep on it. I consider bad conscience the profound illness which human beings had to come down with, under the pressure of the most fundamental of all the changes which they experienced - that change when they found themselves locked within the confines of society and peace. Just like the things water animals must have gone though when they were forced either to become land animals or to die off, so events must have played themselves out with this half-beast so happily adapted to the wilderness, war, wandering around, adventure - suddenly all its instincts were devalued and “disengaged.”

From this point on, these animals were to go on foot and “carry themselves”; whereas previously they had been supported by the water. A terrible heaviness weighed them down. In performing the simplest things they felt ungainly. In dealing with this new unknown world they no longer had their old leader, the ruling unconscious drives which guided them safely. These unfortunate creatures were reduced to thinking, inferring, calculating, bringing together cause and effect, to their “consciousness,” their most impoverished and error-prone organ! I believe that on earth there has never been such a feeling of misery, such a leaden discomfort - while at the same time those old instincts had not all at once stopped imposing their demands! Only it was difficult and seldom possible to do their bidding. For the most part they had to find new and, as it were, underground satisfactions for them.

All instincts which are not discharged to the outside are turned back inside. This is what I call the internalization of man. From this first grows in man what people later call his “soul.” The entire inner world, originally as thin as if stretched between two layers of skin, expanded and extended itself, acquired depth, width, and height to the extend that the discharge of human instinct out into the world was obstructed. Those frightening fortifications with which the organization of the state protected itself against the old instincts for freedom-punishments belongs above all to these fortifications - made all those instincts of the wild, free, roaming man turn backwards, against man himself. Enmity, cruelty, joy in pursuit, in attack, in change, in destruction - all those turned themselves against the possessors of such instincts. That is the origin of “bad conscience.”

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Friedrich Nietzsche, On the Genealogy of Morals

The reason people look for new identities is because they got bored/unsatisfied with their life, so they escape this emptiness by identifying with another role in society. But they don’t know that nothing is really going to change, its their minds convincing themselves “things are better because I’m different now”. These people fool themselves and they achieve some type of happiness through it, but through self-delusion.

Every desire is means to an escape, every escape a revolving door” - Zen Kōan

"Follow the wrong people, and you will fail with them."

What I love the most must be what hurts me the most.

"Voidness does not mean nothingness, but rather that all things lack intrinsic reality, intrinsic objectivity, intrinsic identity or intrinsic referentiality. Lacking such static essence or substance does not make them not exist — it makes them thoroughly relative."
Robert Thurman
"There are two different types of people in the world, those who want to know, and those who want to believe."
Friedrich Nietzsche

Western philosophy is all about criticizing whats outside of the self. It’s about accumulating loads and loads of knowledge, and inquiring it.

Eastern philosophy is all about criticizing whats inside the self (and created by the self). It’s about getting rid of useless knowledge and mental fixations, by inquiring what you think you know.